bleugh
14th February 2004, 1:56 pm

life is just the same as last time i wrote. once again i've come home for the weekend, and it's such a struggle just getting through these three days, even though i know that my dad needs me. i was lying in bed this morning, after having a dream that my mum was still alive - thanks for that body, it really helped - thinking "maybe i'll just stay in bed all day today, maybe then everything'll just go away".

being at uni is still tough, but better than being at home, i've realised. a few people know that i'm smoking again; i don't really give a shit if they all find out or not. our corridor is so frickin' anti-smoking... i don't see why i have to justify myself to the more righteous of them, when the fact that i'm smoking is so totally irrelevent compared to the other things that are happening.

got very drunk thursday night, as some of the group were going out to gatecrasher, and it was a great escape. had one of those great drunk-bonding conversations with mel and hannah, where we sat in the corridor and basically told each other how fantastic we thought they were, and how men are stupid. then me and mel sang along to Part of Your World and A Whole New World (disney for the uneducated ones amongst you) and finished it with a big drunk hug. we then all went down for a drink in earnshaw, before they headed off in taxis and rich and i went for a walk through the sorby grounds and had a smoke. it was a very good night indeed.

sat making a couple of new mini disks at the moment, just got buddy holly - it doesn't matter anymore... mmm a fantastic song.

right i'll leave it here, as i have nothing else to write about other than how everything's still very shitty. hopefully i'll write a happier entry soon.

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